calm

i feel calm. . thoughtful.  or maybe i feel as though there is something that i should be thinking about.  but for once in my life there is not a swarm of ideas buzzing around in my mind.  I am unaccustomed to this settled calm.  my mind never stops....it's always going...keeping me up at night, keeping me from making decisions, paralyzing, inspiring, overwhelming me.  but not now.  now... i sit.  i am not tired.  i have no inclination toward any activity or action, but to sit immersed in this unfamiliar quietude.